❤Mortuus' Story

Yesterday I had my first lecture of Media Law! The professor Miha Šepec was very fun and interesting to listen to. I did eat Carniolan sausages and drink two green teas with milk, but that's just because one needs sustenance 😊 This may or may not be professor dr. Miha Šepec 😋 Important information from the lecture: What is law? Law are a sort of restrictions that we've all agreed to follow, and if you don't follow them, there are sanctions, which is important, because law without sanctions, without realistic sanctions something that is notable has no power nor no meaning. The professor gave an example of, who would follow the parking law if the sanction was only 1€, to which his answer was pretty much noone. Law is a system of many different subsystems, or in other words just 'Law' doesn't exist, but what it does is it encompasses various law that are placed over various different aspects of life. Few that we've listed were:  - constitutional right; so how

And I don't know why... Like, yeah, I was angry, tired and in pain, but when I got home, I just curled up and cried myself to sleep. It's now been almost a week and it still hurts, specially because I don't have a solid reason why I quit. I actually liked the job and I had the best coworkers I ever had... Maybe I just dislike myself to the point where I don't allow myself to have nice things... I don't know what to do, what step to take now... I'll make some games for Android, if I'll figure out how to do that, maybe I'll be able to make few euros that way, I've also sent some mails to some companies, but none responded.  I could probably get my job back, but I can't get myself to face my coworkers after I've quit, I can't just go back... Although my boss would probably allow me to come back... I really don't know why I make my life so much harder for myself... Help me :( 

Good day, some might say I'm a bit late, but some would also say better late than never. So... In the new year of 2020, I've cut my hair and will try to maintain short hair for the foreseeable future, I’ve also started the process of cleaning my room, Like thoroughly this time which means that I'm getting rid of approximately 5 computer cases, 1-4 monitors, a lot of papers and documents and hopefully also a lot of clothing so that I can empty my closet. It is taking a bit longer than I initially expected but that is only because I installed a new table which is a lot lower than the previous one which means that I can actually sit straight now and that my feet touch the ground, which is always good. I have also begun the process of learning Android programming using programming language kotlin which is the dominant programming language for Android development right now or so I believe. In the Sun but I also started to exercise regularly every day which I like to believe h

"When successfully scaled up, modern reinforcement learning techniques can achieve superhuman performance in competitive esports games. The key ingredients are to expand the scale of compute used, by increasing the batch size and total training time. In order to extend the training time of a single run to ten months, we developed surgery techniques for continuing training across changes to the model and environment. While we focused on Dota 2, we hypothesize these results will apply more generally and these methods can solve any zero-sum two-team continuous environment which can be simulated in parallel across hundreds of thousands of instances. In the future, environments and tasks will continue to grow in complexity. Scaling will become even more important (for current methods) as the tasks become more challenging." This excerpt is from this document:  https://cdn.openai.com/dota-2.pdf

I approached my mother while she was cooking (she was cooking because even though she has a broken leg, she offered to cook for me and her), I asked her if she knew why I’m constantly correcting her, when she requests something of me, to which she didn’t really have an answer, somehow she felt offended by the fact that she could learn something anything from me. A few minutes of chatting later and she delivered the wall shattering statement, she said: “Because of you, it’s not easier to live!”. That was quite painful to hear, especially because since she broke her leg, I was always at her side. It is true that some of the time when she asked me to do something I would ask her how to do that, but that’s mostly to avoid doing something twice, you know, doing it the first time the way you think she wants it done, and then doing it the second time when she sees how you’ve done it and tells you how she wanted it done. Because of this revelation (a surprising and previously unknown

Do you hate yourself, bloody hell, it seems so severe I don't even like saying it out loud but there have been times in my life sometimes not that long ago where I have felt self-hatred, when I break it down it's not that I hate my essence is maybe I hate behaviors or feel like I can't live with myself anymore, Eckhart Tolle used that phrase brilliantly, I can't live with myself anymore, recognising that that indicates even to people self-hatred is like that, I interpret it as a desire to immolate or burn the egoic individualized constructed self, I believe that even in negative impulses there is something positive that can be used, and this is a good example, the self-hatred can be regarded as a kind of awakening to the transition you require of yourself, as if part of you knows there is no future in the person that you've been living as, I can no longer be that man, I've had many times in my life where I felt I've had to transition between the person I wa