❤Mortuus' Story

Today I realised that even though I've lived with my mother my whole life, the way we look at money is different, from the point of view of how poor people look at money and how rich people look at money. Which one would think strange for two people how live/lived together. She asked me to buy a computer for her, so that she wouldn't have to leave her work, but I just couldn't do it, becase she handed me 1110€ in cash and when I told her that this is the most dangerous way to do things and that there are only two types of people that would walk around the world with such an amount of moeny, one being so rich that they don't care if anything happens and the other being mentally unstable not realising what they're doing. Even after explaining that to her she didn't understand. That made me realise that maybe she's been relatively rich her whole life, while I grew up poor and I've always been poor, even though I live with her, under the same roof. Even thou...

Yesterday I had my first lecture of Media Law! The professor Miha Šepec was very fun and interesting to listen to. I did eat Carniolan sausages and drink two green teas with milk, but that's just because one needs sustenance 😊 This may or may not be professor dr. Miha Šepec 😋 Important information from the lecture: What is law? Law are a sort of restrictions that we've all agreed to follow, and if you don't follow them, there are sanctions, which is important, because law without sanctions, without realistic sanctions something that is notable has no power nor no meaning. The professor gave an example of, who would follow the parking law if the sanction was only 1€, to which his answer was pretty much noone. Law is a system of many different subsystems, or in other words just 'Law' doesn't exist, but what it does is it encompasses various law that are placed over various different aspects of life. Few that we've listed were:  - constitutional right; so how...

And I don't know why... Like, yeah, I was angry, tired and in pain, but when I got home, I just curled up and cried myself to sleep. It's now been almost a week and it still hurts, specially because I don't have a solid reason why I quit. I actually liked the job and I had the best coworkers I ever had... Maybe I just dislike myself to the point where I don't allow myself to have nice things... I don't know what to do, what step to take now... I'll make some games for Android, if I'll figure out how to do that, maybe I'll be able to make few euros that way, I've also sent some mails to some companies, but none responded.  I could probably get my job back, but I can't get myself to face my coworkers after I've quit, I can't just go back... Although my boss would probably allow me to come back... I really don't know why I make my life so much harder for myself... Help me :( 

Good day, some might say I'm a bit late, but some would also say better late than never. So... In the new year of 2020, I've cut my hair and will try to maintain short hair for the foreseeable future, I’ve also started the process of cleaning my room, Like thoroughly this time which means that I'm getting rid of approximately 5 computer cases, 1-4 monitors, a lot of papers and documents and hopefully also a lot of clothing so that I can empty my closet. It is taking a bit longer than I initially expected but that is only because I installed a new table which is a lot lower than the previous one which means that I can actually sit straight now and that my feet touch the ground, which is always good. I have also begun the process of learning Android programming using programming language kotlin which is the dominant programming language for Android development right now or so I believe. In the Sun but I also started to exercise regularly every day which I like to believe h...

"When successfully scaled up, modern reinforcement learning techniques can achieve superhuman performance in competitive esports games. The key ingredients are to expand the scale of compute used, by increasing the batch size and total training time. In order to extend the training time of a single run to ten months, we developed surgery techniques for continuing training across changes to the model and environment. While we focused on Dota 2, we hypothesize these results will apply more generally and these methods can solve any zero-sum two-team continuous environment which can be simulated in parallel across hundreds of thousands of instances. In the future, environments and tasks will continue to grow in complexity. Scaling will become even more important (for current methods) as the tasks become more challenging." This excerpt is from this document:  https://cdn.openai.com/dota-2.pdf

I approached my mother while she was cooking (she was cooking because even though she has a broken leg, she offered to cook for me and her), I asked her if she knew why I’m constantly correcting her, when she requests something of me, to which she didn’t really have an answer, somehow she felt offended by the fact that she could learn something anything from me. A few minutes of chatting later and she delivered the wall shattering statement, she said: “Because of you, it’s not easier to live!”. That was quite painful to hear, especially because since she broke her leg, I was always at her side. It is true that some of the time when she asked me to do something I would ask her how to do that, but that’s mostly to avoid doing something twice, you know, doing it the first time the way you think she wants it done, and then doing it the second time when she sees how you’ve done it and tells you how she wanted it done. Because of this revelation (a surprising and previously unknown ...

Do you hate yourself, bloody hell, it seems so severe I don't even like saying it out loud but there have been times in my life sometimes not that long ago where I have felt self-hatred, when I break it down it's not that I hate my essence is maybe I hate behaviors or feel like I can't live with myself anymore, Eckhart Tolle used that phrase brilliantly, I can't live with myself anymore, recognising that that indicates even to people self-hatred is like that, I interpret it as a desire to immolate or burn the egoic individualized constructed self, I believe that even in negative impulses there is something positive that can be used, and this is a good example, the self-hatred can be regarded as a kind of awakening to the transition you require of yourself, as if part of you knows there is no future in the person that you've been living as, I can no longer be that man, I've had many times in my life where I felt I've had to transition between the person I wa...

I've been researching various ML techniques for analysing, creating and understanding texts, and along that path I've stumbled across various websites that claim they'll write an article on which ever topic you give them... So of course I gave them a topic "How to do Magic", because why not, right? Here's what they created: Magic does not belong to any one spiritual or religious path. These along with other traditions from around the globe have been passed down over the hundreds of years and are still very much in practice today. In the realm of Wicca, magical traditions have a tendency to be rooted in the hundreds of years old practices of the folk healers of Europe and also the ancient Hermetic philosophies rediscovered throughout the Renaissance. But while there are tried and true spells and methods that have been passed down over the generations, magic in Wicca is not at all a static art. New spells and new approaches to magical manifestation arise all...

" Why does it feel that the time passes faster as we get older? What is the physical basis for the impression that some days are slower than others? Why do we tend to focus on the unusual (the surprise), not on the ever present? This article unveils the physics basis for these common observations. The reason is that the measurable ‘clock time’ is not the same as the time perceived by the human mind. The ‘mind time’ is a sequence of images, i.e. reflections of nature that are fed by stimuli from sensory organs. The rate at which changes in mental images are perceived decreases with age, because of several physical features that change with age: saccades frequency, body size, pathways degradation, etc. The misalignment between mental-image time and clock time serves to unite the voluminous observations of this phenomenon in the literature with the constructal law of evolution of flow architecture, as physics. " -Bejan, A. (n.d.). Why the Days Seem Shorter as We...

Here's another one, very strange indeed! Illuminati confirmed? Model prompt >>> There once was this cool girl named Nina. She was a mystical creature that liked blueberries very much. SAMPLE 1 ===============================================================  You would think you'd smell them in the ground or something, but in this instance you couldn't. It was a theme from her tattoo that turned into a whole bunch of plastic sticks. With an outline of her face and the symbol of purity, her face had this idea of purity. So something was happening in the mind that was causing Nina so much pain. Did you know that she was recognized by Nature? It turns out that flow onto the floor of the water between eyes is really important to her. [Screen behind yawn.] How are you doing? [laughing.] It's fine. I mean it's not my fault, Yogic. We've never been together before. [combo follow-up] What's happened? [singing music] Oh, wow, absolutely. Do you like tha...

I've been playing a bit with GPT-2, which is a program that can predict the next word and thus create interesting texts, it was created by making a neural network and then feeding it with a lot of data of various different texts, they didn't release the full model, but they did release this smaller version of the model, thus I've been playing with it and it's very interesting, this is just one of the results that I've got! Model prompt >>> Luka is a god of death, living beyong time and space.  SAMPLE 1 ===============================================================  To him, the time between the time of the universe itself and when the sun first emerged may have stood as the limit of time's lifespan; thus his time was short, yet he is an intelligent man. He can't control time, so the fact that he lives in a timeline so short as it, he is able to use the existence that he lives in to create new age. His own time may turn into a new age of space ...

Hello! I know I've been very absent, but that's about to change! The reason why I've been absent is because the police (U U It's the sound of the police!) has my laptop, why? I'll tell some other time. And I know I could have been writing on my stationary pc, but.... butts? The reason for this post I that I've bought a domain name mortuus.blog, which means that you can access this blog from any device just by typing mortuus.blog into the URL, that's the websites new address lovemortuus.blogspot.com is of course still active, it's just a new easier address ^^ I'm getting better, which is good and it means that I've also started to work on stuff, instead of just sleeping all day. My current projects are: -A phone with an amazing battery, -Internet controlled pellet furnace, -A website for Limbuš I'm also thinking about these: -DIY UPS -CNC Chess -Habit Tracker Also I've been recording my game footage with my best frie...

Hello there, It's me again, Today I'm drinking Apple Cider, somehow it kinda grew on me, so today after my make up artist lesson I went to the store and bought 10 bottles of it and one bottle of Ginger Beard for my brother, since I drank his yesterday, or whenever I wrote to you last. Yearh... Apple cider, quite good tasting, it about like um... a mix of an apple vinegar and apple juice, I quite like it, a bit citrusy and slightly sweet. Would recommend ^^. After the last time I wrote to you, I then just watched lots of youtube videos, and you know, just generally contemplating life,          like one does, I did also write a bit into my notepad, which isn't next to me right now...      Let me get it... Ahh~~~    There we go, I don't write anything secret into it, but it does feels good to just write stuff on paper, although I do think that I'm faster at typing then writing, but yeah, has it's charms. So, after the last ...

Hello, New era is soon starting in my life and it's not a very good era. Quite a lot of stress and stuff is already flowing over me, and I have a feeling a lot more will come... But you're in the future, so you already know what happened, that's the nature of recording stuff. Who ever reads or watches them, is always in the future, which is quite amazing when you think about it. So yeah, I've recently started to write my thoughts down, in as little form as possible, and I wish to do the same here. Mainly because I think I could be fun, and because I don't really know how to write good stories or anything good, so I might as well just write whatever comes to my mind. And in such way kinda make my own structure ^^ Isn't it cool that this entire post is actually written in HTML? Don't get me wrong, I did use the WYSIWYG (What You See Is What You Get) editor that Google provides, mainly because I want to make it as easy as possible to put my thoughts ...